Loving You

It was a long flight back to the big city. They welcomed us with flashing lights.



But nothing stands out more than your eyes. You've got your thing to do. I've got my thing to do. We have argued a lot about the littlest of things. However make no mistake. I treasure every moment with you. The good or bad. For better or worse.



It's amazing. The journey we had between now and then. As you blossomed, my life was turned upside down. Inside out. My career. My relationships with my friends. My relationship with you. Everything.

But despite overwhelming circumstances, I've managed to hold together. Partially. Let me rephrase that. Mostly because of you. You are my everything. You were my everything.




For better or worse. This turned for the worse. I suppose. Twice prior to this. We've been on the rocks. I guess this makes it number three.


Here's what I don't understand. We've been in a relationship for months. You knew him for weeks.

Despite an overwhelming odd. You still can't decide?

Let me make the decision for you. Go to him. Go see if you're making the right decision. I've never once cheated on you or in any of my past relationships. We can't exactly say the same for him now can we? I mean he did cheat on my best friend's girlfriend.

What are you gonna do if he does that again to you?

Write another hit single?

Run back to me?

I'm tired of him interfering in my life. Basically trying to mimic my moves. I'm sick of the fact that we share the same hairstyle. I'm sick of the fact that he wears black everywhere. Just like me. Now he wants to take you away from me?

You and I have our little fiddles. We have different picks in movies. There was the teh tarik fiasco. Our recurring trust issues. I don't like hockey. I don't do sports.

How about him? I give him the fact that he's athletically gifted. Whether or not he likes hockey is questionable. I'll give him the fact that girls everywhere are crazy for him. But there's one thing I can't give him and that's the fact that he'll love you more than I do.

He may be just messing with my head. But right now I'm in no proper state to fight him. He wants you he can have you. I just can't deal with him anymore. Like I can't deal with you being conflicted between me and him.

I hope you and him work out better than you and I did. Because if you don't and you call me.

I won't pick up.

So congratulations Wolf Boy.

This is me...

...giving up.

So put that in your monologue.

Timeline of November 4th 2009

Timeline of today:

7:45 AM

Left for college

 9:00 AM

English for College Studies 3

12:00 PM

Finished exam and went to Rouche Cafe

12:45 PM

Waited for my Nasi Goreng Kampung

12:55 PM

Pay for food and went to Media Hub and 'studied'

2:00 PM

Media Appreciation

3:24 PM

Finished exam

4:15 PM

Left college for Aris Bundchen's crib

4:57 PM

Arrive at Aris Bundchen's crib

5:30 PM

Went to Ikano and ate 4 sandwiches at The Bakery

6:15 PM

Went back to Aris' crib and played Winning Eleven

7:45 PM

Left Aris' crib to return to Valencia

8:17 PM

Had dinner at the clubhouse with the mother and Aris

9:00 PM

Got home and started studying for Social Psychology

11:10 PM

Finished notes on aggression and watched Pinocchio on the Disney Channel

12:00 AM

Continued reading till I completely lost focus and did Social

Interviews on Facebook

12:30 AM

Done writing this post

Salvation in Music

Hello world, me again...how are you today? Nice fine weather we have today...except Malaysia which according to my Yahoo! Widget feels like 37 Degrees...

Anyway, been busy with studying. Even though I would say I spend more time trying to convince my brain to work. That is until today. I finally found a way to narrow my focus away from all the other distractions.

iTunes + Philips In-Ear Headphones = Productivity

Never doubt the ability of music. Much less the combination of music and in-ear headphones.

Thanks to that combination I was able to write notes for magazine and radio in a row.

Why do drugs and music is just as addictive and easier to access?

No needles required. Just need the presence of music, a pair of ears, and a passionate heart.

Teardrop on Fire

What an interesting day today was. I went to One Utama at around 12:45 PM. Met up with Aris Bundchen at around 1:03 PM. He was there to send his car for the servicing required. According to Aris, the mechanic said that it would be done in 2 hours. So we went to have lunch and walked around for a couple of hours.

When we got to the car, turns out they hadn’t even begun their work.

So then they said “Come back in 3 hours.”

We were two boys in a mall, short on cash.

Anyway, so we decided to go watch a movie.

Law Abiding Citizen

 

I personally loved the movie. This was one of those rare movies where I wanted the bad guy (Gerard Butler) to win. To me this movie is the best from Gerard Butler thus far this year.

Then after the movie we went to talk to the mechanic and he said “another 3 hours”.'

But luckily, in the end the mechanic whom probably was high was done in 30 minutes.

Not The Final Notice

We had it all. We were good. Just not great.
Story of our lives isn't it?

Were we not compatible?
Is that what it was?

I loved you...

I trusted you

When we were together

I would not have thought

That you would break my heart

this way....

So here I am...

Surrounded by friends

But the sad thing is...

I can't seem to

forget you

Your smile

Your voice

Your touch

Your embrace

All etched in my head

Sadly...

I can't seem to forget you...

Why do I have a feeling

that you're going through

the same situation?

I had plans for us...

Our future...

This wasn't part of the plan...

It was supposed to be me

Not him

This wasn't supposed to happen

But it did...

I realize that...

...but that doesn't mean...

I accepted it...

When I see you

or

when I think of you

and him...

The feeling is lost...

Just like any memory

of us...

Guess who's back?

It's been a very very long time since I've posted anything here. Lot's of things have happened. Let's save that for another time yeah? The point is I've been so focused on my Tumblr that I forgot about blogger. Well now I'm back.

Am I talking to someone or am I alone?

Another tiring day today. But hey at least all assignments were done the night before. So here’s a quick update on what’s been happening…

[GAMING]

Soul Calibur IV

I know it’s a little late to bring this game up…

But I recently got it and I like it.

The fighting system is fast, exciting, and nothing too complex.

Much like it’s predecessors Soul Calibur IV has 2 special characters. Darth Vader and The Apprentice.

One of the great things about Soul Calibur IV is that it uses 3D character models and the ring is actually a ring unlike King of Fighters XII or Street Fighter IV which are just you moving left to right and right to left.

A key feature in Soul Calibur IV is the character customizability in which you just between several fighting styles (lightsaber not included). From there you customize what your character wears and every piece of armor or clothing has a special trait which is added to your characters attributes.

It’s a good game…

[4/5]   

 

[MOVIES]

District 9

This movie is what I like to call half awesome.

The starting was unique but it was slow.

Slow to the point where I actually fell asleep during the first half. But after I woke up the movie was really interesting.

The movie is very gory and violent and the dialogs are very repetitive. Especially the ‘F’ word…

Sharlto Copley who is the starring actor did a fantastic job when it came to acting. You could actually feel the emotion in the movie.

Overall I think Peter Jackson did another fantastic job on a film.

[4/5]

 

[TECHNOLOGY]

PS3 Slim

I’ve been distracted by the Nokia N900 so much as of late that I forgot about the PS3 Slim.

Obviously, I already have a PS3 but a friend of mine is going to buy the PS3 Slim.

So what’s the difference between the PS3 and the PS3 Slim?

It’s smaller.

The ‘Eject’ and ‘Reset’ buttons are now actual buttons and are no longer touch sensitive.

It’s available in 120 GB.

 

[MUSIC]

Song: Feel

Artist: Marié Digby

Album: Breathing Underwater

Song: City

Artist: Sara Bareilles

Album: Little Voice

Song: Pete Wentz is The Only Reason We’re Famous

Artist: Cobra Starship

Album: Hot Mess